dear whoever,
the first of the month is here and i feel like nothing in my life has changed, my relationship with God hasn’t gotten any stronger, and i feel as if it never will……..i’m tired of living the way i am day to day just getting by. God has to be the center of our lives but now-a-days how is that possible? i try to put God first but i’m weak, i try to live life to the fullest but i’m scared, the world is full of things that are fun and exciting, but i’m living my life not being able to do some of these things, i want to have fun but i don’t want to mess up, so i guard myself i put up walls, to block out these things of this world. how can i block out a friend who has no idea who God is and i’m the only person that will ever tell them anything about him? it shouldn’t work like that. i will not do that to someone i love and neither would God. i see people everyday that are hurting and i do nothing about it because i myself am hurting, i want to help but who am i to help someone with maybe one more problem than me. it doesn’t work like that. i know a few people that have helped me but there lives seemed pretty perfect and they were Christians, maybe that’s it maybe i’m not a Christian? or could it be that they weren’t Christians? i’ll never know this is so hard, why is this life just as hard as the one i had before becoming what is known as a Christian? yeah people say i’m a better person for it but all i do is gossip and talk about people who are and aren’t Christians and try to figure out why they are doing the stupid things they do instead of helping them by doing something about it, whether that be praying for them or whatever. this is life is not fun and i’m seriously thinking about going back to my old ways, i wasn’t doing anything wrong when i was “lost” (that’s what christians call it). i don’t understand why we have to label ourselves, i think that God has found everyone, or has he? this is a hard life that i don’t understand, why would God present us with something so difficult after dying for a cause that is suppose to help those hurting. the confusion, the anxiety, and the pain that people go through should not be found in God. so why is it? i thought he has already taken all our hurts and pains.
i do youth ministry and i was wondering what my answer would be if challenged with this statement, and i had no idea how i would answer this?
how would you answer this?
